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wad is maturity? friendship? hurt? care? love? |1:32 PM

sometimes i ponder abt wad people comment on wads maturity? does maturity = able to accept hurt without fighting back?..dats certainly not my way of maturity...somehow to me..doing things dat u knoe will hurt your friend and going ahead with it is also not my way of friendship..maturity is again qns in this situation..does going ahead with sth u knoe will hurt your friend called maturity?..its a display of total selfishness and childishness..yes..they say LOVE is selfish..but loving someone and at the same time hurting another..hmm..how long can u live with it?..no conscience?...personally i cannot do it..asking me to chase someone whom i knoe my friend ( or even close friend ) likes her too..its not a way of showing my maturity..hurt..humph..hurt can be displayed in many diff ways i feel..displayed in forms of anger or hatred..for me..i simply ignore..i ignore things dat arent pleasant to me to make my life a better one..i keep telling myself, "why get all caught up with hurt?" when i can simply ignore it..sometimes i would even go to the extent of deleting him/her from all phases of my life to assist myself in ignoring the hurt or even forgetting them..
wad does care actually mean to me..caring for someone to me is not just words and agenda..its more than dat..i always believe action speaks louder than words..dats y i always show care thru forms of "touch" or doing things for them..prob dats y u often see me pad my friends on the head or even putting my hand over their shoulder..doing things for them..hmm..i often go to the extent of not thinking of myself to show care for my friends..i often do things dat make me feel like "how come i cant tink of myself more.."
love..hmm..they say its complicated and selfish..yes i do agree dat its complicated..and selfish?..i doubt so..people often say dat loving someone is wanting him/her to be happy..to me..dats pretty true..i had love someone so dear to me..though she is with another..but everytime i see her smile when shes on the phone with her or when she brings him up to the discussion..makes my heart melt..hmm..hereby i share a lil account ..any mere coincidence wasnt intentional:
there was a guy..hmm..whom dun dare to love another after his last breakup with his ex..well..he got a few girls whom express their love to him..but someone he just dun dare to accept it..saying things dat will cont prolong the whole "give me an ans" process....well..there was this one girl..whom he encountered who find him non attractive and bad tempered..which was pretty diff from the other girls..this girl thought getting along with him would give her the rights to change his temper esp..well..the guy was not very much in LOVE with her..but just a mere liking..(this tingling feeling in your heart)..but well..he was rdy to make do with it..and give it a shot..but then again..the barrier of every guy's life - - NS...this guy thought dat liking her wont mean letting her suffer and wait for 2 whole yrs..alone outside while he is serving ns..so he gave a witty reply to the girl's honesty "if after my ns and we are both single..we will give it a try yea?"...low and behold..things dun always go the want u want it..this guy's best friend fell in love with the girl...and his friend thought if he could just bring them 2 together..maybe he will just give up...but to this guy..his best friend's feelings are more impt than anything else..he decided not to hurt him..
when this guy was pushed to wall for an ans to the girl..he gave a simple "i dont live her" which seems not so real..all for this girl's 2 yrs and for his best friend's feelings..
things turn out worse for this guy when one day he witness his best friend held this girl's hands...his heart sank..
his best friend well..did do a bit..and decided to break up with a girl dat day when the guy saw them together...it hurt dat girl a lot i would say..
thought the whole saga ended?..well..think again..the best friend decided to go back with that girl after a few days of consideration..but this time round..he knoes dat the guy likes her enough to give him the timgling feeling in his heart..and dat if he were to go together with that girl..this guy would be hurt and it will be in turn bring their friendship to a halt..man are born selfish..he went on with it without much care..
that guy was hurt..

the story of course din not end here..everything dat follows will be up to u guys imagination...maturity..friendship..care ..love wasnt much displayed here..so hereby i hope that u will just leave things as it is and give me a break..i wasnt displaying your bad qualities if u wanna knoe...i was merely displaying the whole account of wad happened..i dun dare how much u wanna see it..but i knoe i was mature enough to ignore the whole incident..i did not seek pity or anything..i merely just got consoles from friends who learnt abt the situation..yea..

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