changes...
|11:37 PM
just realise lotsa changes took place after the As..when i pass by bukit panjiang plaza a few hrs ago..met boss there and later we head to mayspring to give our senior ying ying some face for her 21st birthday..
well..back to the changes..i was passing bpp just now and found dat they have starbucks there and stuffs..shops i have never seen before when i was still schooling in pj..which got me thinking abt how much changes took place after As..
some of my bestie team mates are working now...and like i am no longer a student in the mean time and stuffs..when the enlistment date of my friends approaching..i start to wonder whether i can take it being alone still working my time away...
basically..i am a person who seriously cant stand loneliness...stuffs liek eating alone travelling alone are things i dun feel comfortable with..dats y i cherish my friends alot..
spoke to bb yest and learn dat i was sensitive..hmm..to think abt it..yes i dare not deny..but "why?".. i ask myself..well..and came out with this ans so as to have sth to show myself..
probably because i need people who cares abt and looks after me..hmm..sth like a guardian angel i suppose..i mean..i dare say for all my life as a servant leader..i have been looking after my team mates and juniors like my own younger brothers or sisters..i try to give all i can for them..showing them care and concern in my own sorta way...but..
who was there to look after me like how i look after people?..hmm..someone i cant find the ans..well..guess god have not allow me to meet my guardian angel yet..
that is prob why even when it comes to relationships..i seek for someone who can look after than someone i need to look after..i mean..yea..well..guess tentatively the ans will be as so till i find a better argument to rebutt this..
for now..i gotta sleep..drank a lil just now..and somehow aint feeling rite..got a lil of gastric..gotta take some med and get some rest and get myself ready for work tmr..chaos~
moo.
=chow=.
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