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bad day... |12:02 AM

dated 13/12/05

this is practically one of the worse days of my life man..never knew working life would be so sucky..so much posting filing typing to do..and to add on to it..things around me aint going smoothly....

to begin...a chapter of my life hanging around her has been put to a stop just a few days ago..she decided to give up on waiting for me...well..a word of advise to her..wise choice..2 yrs is a long time..waiting aint the best option after all..sorry man i sorta upset u..but i only promise to talk abt it after my ns..and not like asked u to wait 2 yrs..guess wad..we are still good friends yea?..i hope..learning pt from this incident.."people dun care how much u knoe but how much u care" yea?...simple gestures like waiting for him for dinner..or even giving him some encouragement help sometimes...changing someone aint the best way out of a relationship..u should accept him/her as who he/she is..=)

then today...make things worse from all the guilt..from the moment i stepped into the office..i was told to go out on delivery with uncle donald..to post some xmas catalogues..before xmas...man i tell u..taking so much lifts and walking here and there aint easy..i still prefer typing D/O in the office man and enduring all the noise and nagging and complains...haiz...halfway thru..i thought i picked up my phone and check out how she is doing..and so i did..i short 5 mins conversation was enough to assure me dat she was fine...well..i later on decided to have dinner with them..so i told her to help me cancel my pract...then the worse part of the day came..

i was happily back in the office looking forward to dinner..when things change for the worse..i got an sms from one of my good friends saying dat she might be meeting someone else for dinner..so i thought well..having dinner without her is fine when he told me he will be going to play mahjong if she is not having dinner...this totally turn me off la..i was like...dunno how to put it..slog one whole day looking forward to the dinner when sth liddat just turn me off..although they did decided to have dinner in the end ..but..aiya..i lost my mood..i was too upset for it..so i rejected the dinner...was rather sad...i teared..i mean..i dunno la..prob from all the stress at work..then sth like this just broke me down...

sorry man i sorta snapped at u in the sms just now..with regard to work and u not replying..i mean i was sad and angered la..thats why the harsh smses and replies...haiz..

for the mean time..i just wanna be alone...i dun wanna hurt either of them by words i said which i dun even actually mean it...pms?...petty?..i dunno..maybe i am..for i just knoe i was disappointed..and it takes alot to cheer me up again...

=(

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=chow=.

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